Last night while watching a movie I decided to indulge myself and to tell you the honest truth I did so two nights in a row. The night before I had a couple of chips, a slice of carrot cake, and popcorn and I didn't feel any repercussions so last night I decided to have another piece of carrot cake, and a cinnamon bun because it seems to be our yearly tradition for new years. And if that wasn’t all enough I had like three or four wine gummies. As a result, I didn’t sleep at all last night. I believe I short-circuited my body and my metabolism stock piled the extra energy to use as fuel later and unfortunately because after eating those extra carbohydrates all I needed to do was go to bed and sleep; that stock pile of energy didn't have anything to do except to keep me wake. And worse of course, I reprogrammed my metabolism to process sweet sugary stuff as un-burnable fat.
Oh no. I went back to my drug den. I think the difficulty is when you stay away from them for a long period of time, just like any alcohol or drugs, you don’t need very much in order to feel a buzz. Plus too it is socially acceptable because I wasn’t the only one overindulging sitting on that couch. My brother is also a sugar junky, however he only has a small pot belly to show it off, last night he had four cinnamon rolls and finished off a giant bread sliced sized piece of fudge after everyone went to bed.
Sleeping through the night without eating for eight hours or so, the body burns fatty acids for energy in the absence of carbs. The body can get those carbohydrates that it needs for burning from all those leafy green vegetables we have been talking about, protein and animal fat, and I had actually had a really good dinner of a pretty big sized steak, coleslaw and onions with mushroom. So I had already had my fill of carbohydrates from those sources. I didn’t need to carb up because I wasn’t running a marathon, although my brain and body most probably felt very differently and the end result was the rush kept me up all night.
So talking about feelings, this overindulgence was way more to do with a sense of belonging and feeling special. Negative feelings are not the only feelings to lead people to overindulge, the brain gets excited to see all those new foods, so it is more to do with positive feelings that confuse the person into a sense of self importance that they can just keep eating and there would be no negative ramification. So it is really important to pay attention to how many things are at play, especially when it is that you are looking at your own family culture and norms.
So now as experience served me correctly after eating a whole bunch of carbohydrates I expect to be having to deal with intense hunger pangs, as well as cravings later today. I will be redirecting myself right back into my carb free diet as soon as my celebration of the new year is done.
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