Day Fifty Six!

Baby I’m back!

I’m happy to say I had a wonderful weekend away with my friend from Toronto. Needless to say, the cat was away and I played! Friday night we went out for drinks. Saturday we stayed in and watched horror movies. Sunday we walked around town filming each other and having a silly great time!
But I didn’t do one thing, and luckily I don’t think I will regret it; I didn’t cheat on my diet!
I drank dry white wine, we made cauliflower crust pizza (recipe is under recipes if you are interested), and when we went out for lunch I had a Caesar salad. And yeah, I picked off the croutons. 
I feel so proud of myself because this is the first time I have ever,

1. Told a friend I’m changing my lifestyle.
2. ACTUALLY STUCK TO THE LIFESTYLE WHILE HAVING A GREAT TIME!   

This leads me to the question, what makes me happy? I wondered to myself, will becoming thin make me happy? Apparently those that have low levels of mindfulness are 34% higher in obesity. The one thing that I can say is that I spent a lot of my time with my friend being mindful of everything from the time we were spending together, to the movies we were watching, to the conversations we were having and of course, the food we were eating. What made me happy was the time I got to spend with my friend and that I was in control of myself and my diet. I felt successful and grateful. 
I think that people who know how to control their diet, and as a result look good, also feel good. I think that when they can look at themselves in the mirror and like what they see, I am sure that that makes them smile. I believe that when I can do the same that I too will smile and therefore I will be happy with my ability to be in control of me, my weight and choices. And when I am able to wear the clothes that I want, I will be so excited to look the way I have always longed to look. 
Now I am back home doing my usual daily routine. I am sitting in my living room right now, watching “The Biggest Loser” and I realized when I saw the before and after pictures of the participants who had lost almost 100 pounds, that I could barely see the difference between the two picks. So now I am not concerned at all that no one can see my 20 pound weight loss.