On the fourth day of blogging I'm happy to announce, still on track! Still On Track! STILL OOONNN TRACK!
That's right my faceless friends, I'm still on track with this protein packed lifestyle! Hurrah! The first goal is in my sights! I have now lost seven pounds!
Yesterday I mentioned how clothes shopping is for me and I wanted to expand a little on that.
I feel like no matter what I do, all people see is how big I am.
I can be wearing the cutest jacket, the most sparkly jewelry, I can make my hair look amazing, but no matter what colour my nail polish is the first thing that crosses my mind when I look in the mirror (or admittedly when I look at other people who are bigger) I think, 'Large'.
I don't want to, it has just become the norm to, well, to base first impressions on looks. It doesn't matter if your values are towards comfort or towards looks, what you see is the first impression you have of another person.
I have heard stories form other plus size women of how when it is that they are eating at restaurants or having an ice cream that they get looks of disapproval and how people stare. "The truth is, that is actually how socially we keep one another in line" says Dr. Laurie. So the reality is when someone looks at you, they are actually assessing whether they are okay. If you have high self esteem you will make an immediate assessment when you see someone staring at you to determine if you are okay and if you are; you blow off the stare, or you take the stare to the positive and assess the stare as appreciation. If however you have low self esteem then you will assess the stare as disapproval, feel bad about yourself and say a negative statement to yourself such as, "I am Ugly".
This self statement is extremely important. This negative self statement actually perpetuates weight gain, and actually falls under the heading of 'trauma'. The basis of the Emotionally Focussed Eating Program combines two principles, the first principle addressed is that of food and what food is actually really composed of. The second principle is that of addressing negative self statements that have been acquired through trauma.
What are your negative self statements?
On the quest to lose 50 pounds in a year. Can she do it? Only time will tell....with the help of this blog.