Day Ninety Nine!!!!!!

What’s up my fat busting bitches?


Today is the third and final day of my juice cleanse. I mentioned yesterday that I had no hunger pangs, felt energized, and the only problem I really had was that I missed chewing. 
WELL, today was a bit of a different story. I didn’t have hunger pangs but I felt TIRED. I haven’t considered taking a nap in years but today I was struggling not to, I don’t know if it’s because of the juice cleanse or because of the combination of the juice cleanse and shovelling snow (which I found out I didn’t even need to do anyway because someone came and bulldozed what I didn’t shovel). Regardless, I was exhausted. I also, for a brief while, suffered from mild but persistent heartburn, which I’m pretty sure is because of all the ‘detoxifying’ lemon juice I have been drinking.


I think for a first try I have done an excellent job of being on this not eat cleanse. I learned that you actually don’t have to eat as much as you think you need to eat. Just the nutrients from the vegetables can be enough for a time. However, because of the heartburn and feeling exceedingly tired, I think my body is telling me to stop for a bit. The benefits of this cleanse is that I lost a good amount of weight during it. Yesterday I lost 3 pounds and today I lost 3 pounds, so tomorrow I am hoping that I lose another 3, even though I am breaking the detox tonight. I also learned that I can go 3 days without eating and still feel relatively fine. I always wanted to try an extended fast but always had the fear that I would just faint in a public place. Also I have found that there is a lot of taboo that there around fasting. I now know that this fear factor isn’t true.


I will be honest, before Christmas I was doing pretty good in regards to my weight loss. I set a goal that by the New Years I would have lost 30 pounds. Unfortunately I ALMOST reached my goal. I only had 5 more pounds to lose and I could have called myself successful. However, I sabotaged myself. I indulged in everything there was to indulge in (check out my earlier blog posts for greater details) but I skyrocketed back to my starting weight. 
After this disaster in the first week of the new year I was able to lose 10 pounds, but it has been a struggle since. Before Christmas I was getting into the habit of regimented fasting. I could go the whole day just drinking liquids, had limited cheese, grapes, and wine when my family got home, had a small supper, and then would go to bed. This was the key to my almost weight success. But after all the sugar intake over the Holidays I found I had relapsed. I struggled to go a couple of hours without caving into eating something (everything I ate was zero or close to zero carbs but I was exceeding my calorie intake so I just maintained my weight).  


With the juice fast I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have successfully reminded my body that I can go a while without eating, and I think I have successfully reminded my psyche that it can do it too. My new goal is to lose 50 pounds in this year (from my starting weight before Christmas) and so far I am successful. For me to lose the fifty pounds I need to lose 1.5 pounds a week or 4.5 pounds a month. So with the juice cleanse I have lost 23 pounds again. I am now 210 pounds. I want to achieve my goal weight, and I believe that I will because of the support of the Emotionally Focussed Eating Program. Not only has it introduced to me the Ketogenic/Atkins, low carb, high fat diet, but it has also given me the support and tough love that I need.


I know I can do it.