Happy Christmas Eve Eve!!!
Today was a big day. I wore my size sixteen pants for the first time in a long time! I have worn them before, and then I gained, and then I put them in the drawer and then I gained. Originally I went up to a size twenty two and then down to a size eighteen and now officially, I am a size sixteen!! Yay! I spent the day at the mall Christmas shopping and it was stressful, there were people and they were in distress, they were displaying their distress with their inappropriate driving techniques, inappropriate parking techniques, and for some reason no matter what it was I was interested in looking at, so were thirty other people.
I was remembering when we were out and about, that my main usual focus was ‘where are we going to eat?’ and I would badger my mom until she would finally acquiesce. Yet today, I remembered that I used to concentrate on that but, I didn’t feel the need to act on it at all today. We did the shopping, we commiserated on the irritation of others, and then we found our way home, without eating.
Okay, so here it is in a nut shell, my brother loves cinnamon buns. Tonight we are going to sit down and enjoy a cinnamon bun, each. I am admitting to the fact that I have enabled my family to enjoy a sweet memory. I encouraged the purchase by agreeing with the purchase of the cinnamon buns. This is the important fact though; this hasn’t been an everyday thing. We have been to that same mall many times this year, we have not stopped at Cinnabon, once. So this is a special celebration to have with my bro, that we are all going to enjoy as a family together as we sit down and watch our Christmas eve, eve movie chosen by me, Prometheus!
So as always the goal is to enjoy life as we know it, because the truth is we have the freedom to make our lives as we will and as such, I choose to be in control of my diet and therefore size, and as well, I get to choose when I celebrate. I get to enjoy a Cinnabon and feel like at the same time I am making a choice because I have the freedom to choose.
Family is important and each person in the family has to feel like they are important and their preferences are important as well; so today is the day of my brother. We all get to share in something that he loves. I am not sure how this applies to the movie choice tonight, except that we need to pay attention to what is it is that we put in our mouths…..because it really did end up screwing with humanity!
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