Day Three Hundred and Fifty One!!!!!!

So Close Yet So Far!


Meeting goals and staying happy and satisfied with your progress don’t always come hand in hand. My overall goal for this year was to lose 50 pounds by October 22, and I am nervous. It is already October 9th and while I have made great strives in my weight loss journey I am still 13 pounds away from my goal. This only gives me exactly 13 days to lose 13 pounds, and there is the hurtle of Thanksgiving, then going to Toronto for a few days on business. Never mind, I am not nervous, I am terrified.


It pains me to type this, and by no means am I giving up, but I think I may have to accept the fact that I will not achieve my goal. I will not let myself fall into despair by any means because coming this far is such a huge success that there is no way to ignore my weight loss. I will not lose sight of the real goal; to become healthy. I will not allow myself to throw in the towel and let the intrusive thoughts of ‘I will never be thin’ enter my mind.


Staying positive, and on the right track, even though there is a huge possibility that things won’t work out exactly as you want them to is a way of being that must be acknowledged and addressed. When you are making any kind of change in your life, saving money, changing careers, having a child, moving to a new house, there will be so many things that go wrong and right that you did not expect. Maybe you won’t be able to put on a brave face through it all, but staying true to the final destination is important on the road to success.


I am not going to get discouraged or sad or angry at myself. Instead I am going to continue what I am doing. I am going to do what I know works and implementing all that I have learned from writing a blog post about health everyday for 351 days! I am going to instil fast days again, I am going to cut back the carbs again (yes, maybe my short comings have been because of my love of grapes), and I am going to ride the waves of cravings until I get to my goal.


As for Thanksgiving, I am a little trepidatious that I will over indulge on some things, and I probably will, but this is nothing a huge bucket of water and a fast day immediately after can’t fix. I will enjoy myself and keep my goal in mind so I don’t lose focus.