Day Twelve!

Wow! Almost two weeks!
Today I wanted to talk about the 'Image of Food". What do you think to yourself when you open the cupboard? What is your core belief? What is the feeling attached to it?
I know when I open the cupboard, immediately I'm excited. I live with people who aren't on the diet so when I see their snacks like cookies and chocolates, and potato chips, I remember how great it was to just sit on the couch and eat all of them.
But now that I know I can achieve my weight loss goal, when I look into the cupboard and see all the things I used to enjoy I get a little sad, maybe a little angry, I shut the cupboard door feeling left out from the fun I used to have. 
It is a lot of work to dismiss instant gratification for, well, lets face it, working against being instantly satisfied. 
As I type this I realize that my core beliefs used to be, and I guess still are, "I want to feel good now. I should be able to eat what tastes good, whenever, wherever, no matter how much."
But as I have been settling into this new lifestyle I do think my core beliefs are slowly changing. I get excited when I think about what new fashions and styles I will be able to pull off. I get excited when I think about entering a normal store and not have to worry about 'what if they don't have my size?' I get excited knowing that soon, I will actually achieve the goal I have been trying to set myself for years.
I want my new core belief to be, "I do what makes me proud."
So the image that comes to me while I'm eating food is me eating whatever I want and the emotion that comes to me is happiness.
This is the key to the Emotionally Focussed Eating program. So the work I get to do tomorrow is to start to break the connection between my image of food and the feeling of happiness.