Day One Hundred and Eighty Four!!!!!!

Messiness


Which is worse? Remembering a painful past or ignoring an excruciating present? Which ever one you choose, both have something in common, which is … clutter. Being able to move on from messiness is about being willing to untangle and uproot whatever is holding us back. 


The one thing that I have noticed, since I started this process of weight loss and writing this blog, is that I have noticed that I have started to be surrounded by clutter, piles and piles of magazines, books, clothes, and stuff, surrounds me. It is difficult to believe, as I look around my work space, that this is the work space of someone trying to declutter her diet.


Establishing order is a life changing principle. I have realized that the chaos that engulfs me is an extension of my body. A sense of being at home, is important to everyone’s well being and being at home needs to feel safe and give me a sense of relief. 


A major sense of being able to restore my wellbeing is from my home environment. And if your home doesn’t give you a sense of happiness or resilience, energy or humour, or courage, then the dire consequences will be that all of those things will decrease, including self-respect. Self- respect is reflected in not only preparing and eating good meals, but also in a sense of order, in which the lack of such order provides a sense of helpfulness. We live our lives, not only through our body but through our home as an extension of our body. 


How do we get into this messiness? What’s really preventing us from enjoying serenity in our surroundings. Life’s miseries eventually pile up and extract a price. Neglect starts to become self-excuse. Self-excuse is when we end up squandering our time, our creative energy, our emotions, with good intentions, we squander our self respect, our hopes, our dreams, and our future.


Nasty habits leak into all areas of our lives. We don't confront the people that need to be confronted, we let go unanswered questions that need to be answered, and we let our relationship with ourself and/or others to go untended. We might think we are avoiding confrontation as long as we continue to do the same old thing undetected or unchallenged, until we finally get to the point that we just can’t bare those outer pressures any more, and the only remedy is to declare war on ourselves.


We need to start to organize and control our lives, and dig ourselves out! And unless we do that, and start to take control, everything accumulates, enabling us to continue to stay stagnant in an unhealthy situation, that should have been dealt with years ago. In fact, the truth is we have been so disconnected for so long that we begin to think of our discomfort as normal, refusing to acknowledge that this painful condition exists and has become our ‘norm’. 


It is important to confront that messy person within. And start to have meaningful conversations with her. This is a co-dependent relationship, and if you think that you can change behaviour without intervention; that’s wishful thinking. 


It is time for a spring cleaning and becoming clutter dependant no more. 


Clutter symbolizes what is out-worn and unfulfilled in our lives and that is why it is so hard to clear it out because it is an acknowledgment of a hard truth. We need to come to terms, take stalk and pay attention to reality, truth and space. The space we need to pay attention to is not only the space that we live in, but the space that we take up. ​