Day Thirty Four!!

So it’s New Years resolution time!
​In days gone by I have made a new years resolution to do with exercise, and lifestyle. I actually bought that Insanity Workout Program. I think I lasted doing it for about three weeks and I got sick. It went back in the box and is now sitting somewhere on a shelf in my basement. So as I have been noticing all these Christmas decorations I have been thinking about my 2019 New Years resolution. Now That I have begun an actual program that I plan on continuing for the next year with the hope being that I am somewhere around the maintenance faze by this time next year that my New Years resolution is to achieve just that. In order to be able to facilitate change, we really need to improve self efficacy, says Dr. Laurie. “Self efficacy is the belief that you are capable of being able to do what you need to do in order to attain your goal. If a person has high self efficacy, they view a difficult task as something to be mastered. For people with low self efficacy they have had failed attempts which lead to self blame and therefore, the task feels like it needs to be avoided.”
Also, who wants to be stuck repeating the same old painful task over and over again? Not me. Short term weightless strategies do a pretty good job getting you into manipulating your food or exercise habits for a while. But that’s all they really offer, which leads to low self efficacy and the cycle continues. 
I am no longer forcing myself to work out. I am no longer blindly going forward declaring ‘diet’ with no idea how to do it. No more eating stupid rice cakes when I’m desperately wanting a stupid doughnut, only to find out now that they’re actually both a joke! One fooling me into thinking I’m doing a good thing, and the other fooling me into thinking I should be happy now. God damn it!
My usual diet and exercise declaration had a huge problem, and the problem was it doesn’t work. Which is a pretty big problem if you’re like me and when things don’t work out it’s extremely upsetting.
How many of you have dieted and exercised with passion only to regain the stupid weight? It isn’t because you didn’t try hard enough it’s that the contributing factors of your misunderstanding of food and your emotional subconscious were not completely under your conscious control. 
So what I have committed to doing over this next year, which I have high self efficacy about, is to learn how to trust and honour the Emotionally Focussed Weight Regulation System long term.